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Thursday, March 30, 2006

ministry of SOUND.

UPDATED POST~ haa!!!!

went there ystrday nite.

hmm..

i shld say the place is not bad..

but the smoke makes me sian half..

and i was super duper shock to see my manager there!!

damn...

he is such a flirt....

nah.. shldnt say flirt..

shld say he is a bit veri horny..

wahahahaha!!!

ok. nvm.

went there with the Joey, Yuwen, Zuliana, Nyoman and the kitchen ppl.

Gerald is getting so tipsy..

and he start doin dirty dancin on me.

so paiseh can..

everybody keep laughing..

and i buay dong oso.

sit dwn there keep laughin.

coz he realli too funny..

entertain him abit.

dance abit.

den i start laughin like mad woman.

coz he realli too funny..

*faint..

and Chai..

so high too..

dance till duno what is what..

then de ah leong...

keep pullin me and yuwen off our seats and want us to dance with him..

faint...~

worse still..

all keep pushin me to Gerald.

faint~

that Joey..

wah lauz eh..

realli high oso..

push me till i almost fall dwn..

wah lauz eh..

but overall quite fun.

its a pity that we stay at our seats...

shld go on to the dance floor..

bUT!!!!...

i shy la~ wahahhahahaha!!!

everything is gd..

but!!!

the smoke...

makes me -_-"

haiz..

and also..

can realli see hw the guys realli try to take advantage of the gals when they get tipsy...

touch here and there.

and some of the gals realli..

juz let the guys do whatever they wan..

disgusting creatures..

but u will realli see that person true personality...

who is the good person and who is the bad person...

haa!!!

oh ya..

went toilet..

den saw Felisia~

wahhahahaha!!!

so funny...

she was so shock to see me too..

so funny la...

went off at ard 3am..

actually went off at ard 215am..

but Joey duno fly whr..

ha!

Joey and Yuwen after tat still go have prata at clementi..

i...

of coz go hme..

kana scold by my mum till duno wat..

almost gt a slap..

haiz..

damn shit man..

coz she thought i smoke.

i swear and i swear..

i will drink.

but never will i smoke.

even if i drink.

i do know my limits..

is it that im realli such a no limit gal to her..

she doesnt give any trust to me.

yes indeed.

i shldnt have go to these place.

i shldnt have gone out till the wee hours.

but i do have my life.

why cant she juz give me the freedom..

haiz..

whatever la..

i realli duno what she wants.

one moment she say"u goin 20 le still act like a kid!!!!"

next moment she will say"small girl cannot go out till so late..."

realli duno what she wants..

i do have my self-control..

but its something that u cant see..

on the taxi ystrday nite..

hw i wish tat uncle is my parent.

haiz...

at least he sees my anxiety in getting hme asap...

coz i dunwan my mum to worry.

and i wan her to rest earli coz she still gt wrk the nxt day.

but my mum dun sees it..

she sees it as i LOVE getting her worried.

haiz...

i juz need some free time out late chillin with my frenz..

coz i seriously lacked the time of chillin with my frenz.

im everyday so busy with church, slping, online.

yes.. i shld cut dwn on my slpin and online..

so that i can spent more time with my frenz..

but..

money go whr get!!!!

kaoz...

whatever la..

gtg le..

bye bloggie...

=>ministry of SOUND.<=
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3/30/2006 12:36:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

what...

monday.

duno what the heck happen.

i slp like a log..

till 4pm den wake up.

-____-"

whatever.

and my day is spent juz like tat..

was plannin to go out.

ended up..

haiz.

whatever.

tuesday.

turn off day once again.

eeks.

the AOM.

once again smoke in de smoke.

and even drink.

wah lauz eh.

and seriously i dun like the way they do things.

u do ur job i do my job.

whr's de sense of team wrk.

u said we are a team.

but all these are not acts of team wrk.

we are wrkin in the same place.

we shld help one another when they cant cope or they need help isnt it.

whatever.

shall not comments ani much more.

will onli spoil my mood.

ystrday Nyoman veri blur can..

haiz..

ask him switch off the blender.

he go on.

den the hot water all splash out..

and scaled my hand..

o.0...

went off earlier..

and i did stunt.

go wrong direction escalator.

i actually know i went wrong 1.

but duno why i juz keep walkin.

haiz.

and thus i injured my finger.

skin peeled off...

o.0...

haiz...

so many injuries.

den go hme..

duno for what i go hit my left kneecap AGAIN!!!

think within this 1 wk..

i hit it for duno hw many times le..

was so pain ystrday nite.

the old injuries plus all these newly implanted 1..

wah lauz eh..

sian.

den tonite maybe goin MOS..

first time go~

wahahahahha!!!

shhhh!!!

P/S: im a SUPER DUPER guai gal can?!~haa!!!

yaya..

nv go clubbin b4.

shall try it.

ha!

sian sian sian. nth to do nw.

i wan slp. haiz. bye bloggie.

=>what...<=
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3/29/2006 12:25:00 PM
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Monday, March 27, 2006

another stupid day.

went service.

den go wrk.

reach there damn earli.

140pm?~ haa!!!

den waited fer Sarah to come.

went thru cell grp mtg with me.

den i start wrk..

still nt use to be on de floor.

still cant memorise the table no.

stupid.

den key in order is so damn slow.

whatever.

i did floor today.

section 1.

so i nid do closin for section 1.

and i still nid to close bar.

veri the dotx lo..

nvm la..

duncare.

today when i reach wrkplace.

ppl keep askin what happened the nite before lo.

well well well..

juz 2 supervisors tryin to show ppl their power ya..

yea. scold all u wan..

duhx.

and today.

ha!!

best.

heard another backstabbin frm the supervisors abt another supervisor again

wth can?!

on de surface wow.. so gd.. buddy buddy..

smokin khaki.

blardy la.

yes. i dun like the 1 tat sayin abt oso.

but...

u all seems to "love" him wat...

nw love him so much till sayin his things behind.

great.

wat a politically GREAT place isnt it..

u are the boss.

big shot isnt it.

whatever.

i juz do my job.

get my pay.

thats it.

sayin ppl..

wat kind of supervisors issit that havin shirt out and walk ard..

how abt the 2 of u?!

smokin INSIDE the shop.

SUPERB isnt it!

ha!!

whatever it is.

i shall keep quiet.

juz the few of us shall talk abt it.

haiz..

but Kiki goin to leave on Sat le.

sadded.

gonna do nite shift again nxt wk.

argh..

sian..

haiz...

i so long nv watch TV!!!

i so long nv watch MOVIE!!!

haiz.

im sad.

MOVIE!!!!

de last movie i watched is Final Destination 3..

thats almost 1 mth ago!!!!!

haiz..

whatever.

bye bloggie...

=>another stupid day.<=
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3/27/2006 12:16:00 AM
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Sunday, March 26, 2006

pisssssed

work ystrday is so-so onli...

a turn off day..

finally on the floor.

but durin closing something happens and triggers off the anger in de few of us.

Kiki was so pissed off and he is swearin all over.

had a talk with Kiki, Khairul and Nyoman.

Nyoman is a new staff who is also from Indonesia.

he was a staff from siglap branch.

we sit outside the shop and talk till ard 1140pm den leave the place.

and i didnt go hme.

i took bus with Kiki..

to Cityhall mrt station.

meet up with Xiuli, Meifong and Jonathan.

den no train le...

so took 174e hme..

wah lauz..

1hour pls journey..

was so tirin.

did nth much after i reach hme..

and slp..

nw got to go fer service.

im realli veri tired.

haiz.

have to wrk till 11pm today.

pray hard i will nt tio scoldin today.

ystrday quite a pissed off day fer a few of us.

well..

its my first time on floor.

and i mixed up de table no.

and the supervisor..

f me upside dwn.

what the.

u juz ask me go do floor..

den i go do..

but u nv even tell me de table no..

damn it.

and u nv even ask Kiki to help.

ended up u accusin him not helpin.

wtf.

u do order wrongly. break something.

u jus smile/ giggle.

we do something wrong.

u blardy clap ur hand, give us a face or scold us.

what is this.

so pissed.

enuf of rattling. gonna be late fer service le.

bye!

shall be back to complain somemore

=>pisssssed<=
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3/26/2006 08:24:00 AM
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Saturday, March 25, 2006

blog.

was thinkin whether to or not to blog.

coz i realli have no idea what i realli want to.

perhaps thats the main reason why everything always hang in the air.

i dunwan to stay this way.

i wan more.

im not contented with what i have.

every area.

i seriously have no idea what do i want.

studies and relationship.

indeed i have not been doin well in my studies.

and havin to repeat every single module of my year 2 is realli a toopid thing..

as for relationship.

being an indecisive person makes myself, the other party and ppl ard me suffer.

but in actually fact.

im juz being a naive person who believes in those fairy tales.

coz im a easily cheated person.

thus ppl are climbin over me?..

totally no idea.

as for my attachment.

i shld say.

im disappointed.

i believe i can do better.

i wanted to prove myself everyday.

but i juz mess everything up.

am i realli such a failure?!

maybe im one.

i totally have no idea what will i become..

im no longer young.

when 7th Dec 2006 comes.

im no longer a teenager anymore.

and yet im still such a childish person.

useless bum isnt it.

haiz.

my headache these few days almost killed me.

i wanted to pop pills.

but i juz stop myself..

coz i dunwanna get addicted and dependant on them.

1 panadols will take 7yrs to digest.

and i have pop way too much last yr.

i may look as though im juz like normal person.

but seriously i dun think im deep inside.

im juz a weird person.

duhx.

but hw weird can i be.

i duno.

sometimes i juz feel tat im juz like a parasite.

livin in this earth and snatchin oxygen with other ppl..

and waste the food on earth.

some of them cant even have a proper meal.

but me.

havin them and yet still acts like a parasite.

whatever it is.

i seriously duno.

haiz..

what a demoralisin post isnt it.

ha!!

i wanna drink Bailey's Irish Cream.

but i juz cant find it..

why.

is this liquor realli tat difficult to find..

haiz.

whatever.

bye bloggie.

=>blog.<=
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3/25/2006 02:43:00 AM
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handwritin analysis....

jus did a test.

analysis on handwriting..

and its so accurate that i cant believe what i read.

here is the result..

*anyway.. duno why by default i become a HE!!!!...*

haa!!!

http://www.handwritingwizard.com/

this is de website~ =)

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Victoria has left lots of white space on the all four borders of the paper. Victoria fills up just the center area of the page. If this is true, then Victoria has a particular shyness toward people and a fear of moving too fast in any direction. In some cultures, respecting people, rules, and adhering to protocol are ways of life. The right side of the page represents the future and the left side represents the past.? Victoria seems a bit stuck in the middle, afraid to take action. Victoria seems to have a fear of looking bad or of crossing boundries. It will be easy to work with Victoria on a team, because Victoria will usually follow the rules. However, this desire to respect the boundries can often be construed as a lack of confidence and people will walk over Victoria if he is not careful.

Victoria has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. He lets new people into his circle of friends. He uses his imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
Victoria is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Victoria basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals.? A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.

Victoria is a cumulative and procedural thinker. He likes to have all the facts before making a decision. He thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. His thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Victoria learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once he has learned new material, and understood it, he won't forget. Victoria is a methodical thinker, therefore he is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, he often loses to rapid thinking people because he is thinking thirty minutes later about what he should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate. He may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once he gets it, he can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, he can handle it better than most.

Victoria will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

Victoria uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Victoria does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise. Victoria will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally. Victoria is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Victoria doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

=>handwritin analysis....<=
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3/25/2006 01:59:00 AM
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Friday, March 24, 2006

updates

ystrday.

quite a peaceful day at work i shld say.

as for nw..

there's a trainee Supervisor.

he is such a HL person.

"frm my experience......"

thats his line.

indeed he is someone with lots of experience.

but..

i find it veri irritating..

he is onli here for 2 wks..

and he wanted to change this and that..

say this nt correct that nt correct.

what the hell man..

-_-"

forget it.

finally my maple character is lvl 34 le..

nw got to stay there fer quite some time..

i miss playin party quest.. haa!!

nvm

nth to blog oso..

anyway.. Angeline...!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

haa~ ur present..

realli veri expensive can!!!

imported gds somemore la!!! wah lauz..

seEE~~ we LOVE u so much..

haaa!!! =x

=>updates<=
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3/24/2006 12:29:00 PM
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Thursday, March 23, 2006

excellence in service award 2006

yes. once again we manage to bagged the prize again for SP Chinese Orchestra.

of coz im happy.

but.

deep inside me.

i totally lose heart.

do u ppl realli think that we realli deserve this award.

in my heart.

i totally dun agree..

we are able to keep the record of ZERO demerit points is already a miracle.

frankly speakin.

in my heart. how much i wished that we didnt get the award.

the attitude of ppl. sucks.

the commitment level of ppl. sucks.

the attendance of the ppl. sucks.

the ppl. sucks!

everything is jus so well covered up by us.

and thus we get the award.

the feelin in me is realli so mixed up.

ppl are commentin on us and yet they dun feel a thing.

"heyo, u all getting Excellence in Service Award for de 2nd yr leh... this kind of standard ar!"

hw wld u all feel..

perhaps u all might feel nth..

but deep inside my heart..

i almost burst into tears.

to me..

its realli an insult.

a real shame.

ha!

but..

nevertheless..

congrats..

SPCO.

u all did it again.

=>excellence in service award 2006<=
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3/23/2006 12:35:00 PM
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

zoo. memories

i wanna go to the zoo..

i missed goin to the zoo..

Xingzuan juz sms me sayin they goin on sat.

but i gt to work.

haiz.

who can accompany me go when i am able to?!

haiz..

ive gain a lot of things.

but at the same time..

ive lost alot of things.

and i seriously think that i lost more than i gain..

i missed all the mornin calls that i gt.

i missed all the nice talks i had.

i missed everything.

but everything is no longer possible.

bye bloggie.

=>zoo. memories<=
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3/21/2006 01:38:00 PM
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title?!

ha! cut hair ystrday nite..

wanted to dye.

den my mum+_)(*&^%$#@!~

dunwanna talk abt it.

hair cut...

like no diff..

onli cut...

nvm.

duno blog for what oso.

ha!!!~

im veri bored.

im veri sad.

im everything.

ok.

nvm.

i go watch anime~ bye!

=>title?!<=
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3/21/2006 11:54:00 AM
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Monday, March 20, 2006

tired

veri tired nw.

juz gt hme 30mins ago.

gonna slp later for a while.

today work is so so tiring.

handle bar myself.

did almost everything myself.

except for 1 or 2 with the help of Kiki, Shirley and EeVon.

well..

Kiki, Andi and Ade are leavin le..

they goin back Indonesia le.

gonna miss them i think.

ha!!

and heard that Ah Chai goin back Sarawak too.

wah~~

sad.

everybody leaving.

haa!!!!~

whatever.

coz im still stuck there.

veri fast..

2wks over le..

soon, my attachment will be over..

i surely will miss the place and the people there.

but..

as for nw..

the thing i wanted veri much nw is to fall SICK!

haa!!!

dunask me why.

i duno oso.

hw i wish i can juz fall sick and no need to think abt so much things.

well...

rather i shld say..

blame myself for fallin into so much trouble..

and cant get myself out of it..

hw true...

harshed words that i said can nv be taken back again.

i regretted the words i said.

but nth can be done to undo everything.

im juz like a lost sheep nw..

wanderin ard with no sense of direction.

haiz..

whatever.

i wanna zzZzzZ~

bye bloggies.

=>tired<=
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3/20/2006 06:01:00 PM
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Sunday, March 19, 2006

finally.

yes.
finally.
im blogging.
and oso finally.
i made the decision.
the decision that i dunwish to make actually.
but i have to.
in order to stop everything.
i cried after makin the decision.
the 3rd time i cried for this.
haiz.
whatever.
dun wish to talk abt it anymore.
coz i dunwan to be an irritant.

work is fine these few days.
and nw..
i start to dislike this particular supervisor.
coz she is kind of makin me wanna smack her.
yes of coz i will nt.
coz im juz there for attachment
ha!
whatever la.
her attitude puts me off sometimes.
and theres another supervisor whom i used to dislike.
but nw..
i prefer her to the other 1.
ha!
okok
i know i know.
im childish.
ha!!
but at least she do talks to me..
and she dun give that stuck up attitude.
though she sometimes do things nt correctly but..

nvm

whatever la.

okok..

well..

i actually start to like the workplace more n more.

the chefs..

are so cheeky...

Ah Chai.

a thick-skinned guy.

who demand ppl to give him a kiss if wan eat breakfast.

ha!!!

er xin.

another 1.

duno what name.

always laughin.

but onli this 2 always come and ka jiao us.

they do make my day and make me forget what im goin thru.

though they are quite crazy sometimes.

haa!!!!~

the indo trainee there.

Ade and Kiki.

they are nice ppl that always help me with my bar.

Ade always helpin when i cant cope.

Kiki always givin me words of encouragement.

and i miss Joyner.

the crappings and biatchin.

ha!!!

and im so happy these few days.

coz ALEX is nt theRE!!

wahahahaha!

went for service ystrday.

den after that go coffee club @ marina square.

to look for Yuxing.

theirs is so cool.

i mean..

GOOD!

have 2 bar tenders.

and mine..

ONLI ME ALONE!

whats this la.

so sad 1 lo..

nvm.watever la.

but i think i will miss the bar.

haa!!!~

ok.

enuf of work.

as for today.

had performance.

totally boring.

i rushed dwn frm work juz to play 3 songs.

and i onli practice each song ONCE!

ok.

dun say coz i PRO ma.

im nt.

den my ZR.

haiz..

gt to go sch repair it on wed le.

duno what to blog oso.

im veri confused nw.

havin headache.

nt feelin well.

bye bloggie

hw i wish i nv make that decision.

but i cant turn back the time.

what done can never be undone.

when a hurt is implanted.

a scar will be etched.

nthin can remove it except lightenin it.

its jus another scar i had in me.

the 2nd one that etched so deeply within me.

all becoz of me..

being such a naive gal.

is it wrong to be naive..

perhaps it is.

and to grow out of that..

i got to go thru the hard way.

and thus i became who i m today.

i may nt be strong.

but i believe i can grow stronger and stronger in controlling my tears...

and oso to guard my heart...

=>finally.<=
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3/19/2006 07:47:00 PM
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Thursday, March 16, 2006

sad day

ystrday i think is the worst ever day i had @ work.

gt scolded by the manager.

-_-"

pissed.

@ myself.

coz i messed things up.

and i cried.

haiz..

lousy..

but whatever is over is over..

dunwanna care.

4more wks and i will be gone.

whatever la..

duno..

but i do like the place.

but nt what im doin nw..

i juz hope this wk pass quickly and i can go to the floor and take orders.

and i injured my kneecap again.

slipped and fell.

and hit it.

dotx.

but the whole scenary is so funny.

he said he is coming.

but he didnt.

nvm.

am i thinkin too much.

or izzit that i will heart soft.

no idea.

or maybe im still hopin for somethings to happen.

i dunwan to see him fall again.

neither do i wan myself to fall too..

went back sch for CO pract.

its jus so borin.

no longer the same old practices.

so bored.

practicin same old songs.

and i didnt bring my zhongruan dwn.

nt use to it.

suppose to go fer supper.

but im too tired to go.

heard they goin geylang eat..

!!!!!

i miss the food there.

de last time i went thats like 2mths ago.

haiz.

shall go the next time.

Leng accompany me hme.

to my bus stop.

thanks.

and saw Xinjie.

haa!!

she's so shocked to see Leng there.

coz Leng live @ Tanah Merah.

whOos!

and so chit chat a while..

den Leng went hme lo..

was so tired..

wanted to play maple.

but gt some problem with the game.

wanted watch anime.

too tired.

nt concentrating.

and thus went to slp.

and thats like onli 1am?

ha! so earli.

slp fer 12hours.

and im feelin tired again.

haiz..

nvm.

bye bloggy...

"Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday"

=>sad day<=
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3/16/2006 02:29:00 PM
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Bizarre Love Triangle - Jewel

Every time I think of you

I get a shot right through

Into a bolt of blue

It's no problem of mine

But it's a problem I find

Living the life that I can't leave behind

There's no sense in telling me

The wisdom of a fool won't set you free

But that's the way that it goes

And it's what nobody knows

And every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling

I get down on my knees and pray

I'm waiting for the final moment

You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good

I feel like I never should

Whenever I get this way

I just don't know what to say

Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I'm not sure what this could mean

I don't think you're what you seem

I do admit to myself

That if I hurt someone else

Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling

I get down on my knees and pray

I'm waiting for the final moment

You'll say the words that I can't say

Every time I see you falling

I'll get down on my knees and pray

I'm waiting for the final moment

You'll say the words that I can't say

=>Bizarre Love Triangle - Jewel<=
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Monday, March 13, 2006

i finally understand.

yes.

im a lovefool.

frm this pt onwards.

no tears will be shed anymore tears for him.

i promise.

and i will not shed anymore tears for anyonE!

all promises from the ppl are so fake.

yes i promise u.

but in de end it turns out to be otherwise.

try earning the trust i have for u again!

it will be double hardness.

i will no longer trust anybody.

yes.

nobody.

if u are here just to hurt me.

and jux to pull me down..

get lost!

coz u can nv succeed anymore.

i will and i will..

be a new me.

and i will be a changed person by the end of the day.

and regrets will all be behind me.

no more sadness shall come upon me.

is never worth it to be sad over somebody if that person dun even cares abt u.

whatever lies u have said.

whatever insults u have said.

i shall forgive and forget.

but i will never forget hw i went thru all these.

im numbed.

thanks for allowin me to wake up frm all the fairytales stories that im livin in these 3wks.

today.

shall mark the day tat i shall start my life once again.

renewed.

opened-up and never closed up anymore.

thanks for changing my life.

thanks for makin a difference in my life.

my life will never be the same again.

from today onwards,

i am nv me again.

u make my life so miserable.

and frm these days on..

i will jus walk off frm everything and live my life to the fullest.

sorry to make u feel sian.

its my fault for my blardy fugly loOk.

but frm this day onwards.

i will not be the fugly me again.

and thanks for bein able to make up my mind and change for the gd.

bye.

friends..

if u ppl realli care for me...

pls dun console me.

pls dun ask me what have happened.

all i can say is im juz a fool again.

jus be there to support me.

i wan to climb up myself from my this failure.

i wan to be a stronger person.

i wan to be someone who dun nid all these mushy consoles...

i juz wanna be alone.

be there to support me..

a listenin ear for me.

a pillar to support all my decision.

thanks.

i m changed.

VICTORIA = VICTORY..

i will live up to my name.

i wan the victory.

a vow shall be made.

how long.

i duno.

but i know that duration will be enuf for me to pick myself up once again and stay strong for the rest of my life..

the duration will be just enuf for me to be changed into a brand new me..

and it will be just enuff for me to know what i realli want.

and it will be just enuff for me to understand that what ive gone thru are just a steppin stone for me to become a better person.

all i need now is the strength frm u, God..

in You, nothing is impossible.

i believe that He shall give me all the strength that i nid to overcome this huge barrier.

frens...

just keep me in prayers.

love u all lots..

how great is He, plantin so many friends ard me that is always with me..

thanks..

all i have nw is just the peace.

all i wan now is the joy.

and all i wan now is to concentrate in everything that i do.

bye bloggie.

u are one of the biggest pillar of my life.

thnaks.

Leng, Aileen, Meifong.

yes indeed i onli told de 3 of u.

i just wanna thanks u ppl for always there for me.

thnaks.

Leng!!!!!!! dun forget our 8th Month Anniversary!!!

28th March 2006.

haa!!!

bye~

=>i finally understand.<=
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